I'm sorry, I have to get this off of my chest...

I can barely read Jezebel anymore, because sometimes, reading the comments make me want to puke pink.

I'm not even going to pretend that I bring anything to the comment table, but after spending so much time defending it, and getting irritated at people who have ridiculed it, I have to admit that the comments are super predictable. The posts themselves have clearly become formulaic, which I blame on the staff cuts...so now, all I need to do is read the headline to know exactly what the article will say and exactly how the commenters will respond. It's really sad.

I'm suddenly feeling very naive

I was going to write this a couple of weeks ago...when it became obvious the National Enquirer was in fact not bullshit. But I couldn't bring myself to do it. Because somewhere, deep down, I wanted it to not be true. Ok, it was not so deep down. I still want it to not be true.

When the Bill Clinton/Monica Lewinsky scandal broke, my thoughts were: that's fucked up. He's an asshole. He shouldn't have lied. I don't care what happens in his private life, though, as long as he does his job. So why is this different for me? Because I was actually stupid enough to believe in John Edwards as a person and a politician. How often does that happen? How often do we have 100% decent people working hard and making strides in politics? A part of me needed to believe that someone in Washington could make a difference...and live with the same idealism they spit at the public. To walk the walk, so to speak.

The thing is, most politicians are self-centered, self-important, slicksters. But I truly believe that any person who pursues politics with any sort of sincerity must realize that he or she now has obligations to his or her constituents...examples to set in lifestyle that reflect one's political agendas. This means sacrificing selfish desires, just as parents have to do, just as couples have to do. Sure, people make mistakes, and I am not judging Edwards for his mistake. I am just disappointed that he could not look in the face of temptation and walk away for the sake of the American people, if not for the sake of his family who should have been enough.

Also, the lack of coverage of this by the media prior to Edwards' confession is very suspicious. See:

• Bias
• Edwards affair: Was media part of a 'conspiracy of silence'?